So Tired!

I am continuing to be a bad blogger...I'm just so tired. I know that's not an excuse, but when you work all day and go to bed shortly after you get home - it kind of is an excuse.

So right now I'm in a waiting period for my next appointment. It's a big one too...it's the nuchal translucency screening. Then, after that, I will have my cerclage placed! (That's where they stitch me closed) The next appointment is on Friday, December 28th. Right now I am trying to decide if I can wait that long to make sure that this baby is still okay. Or even that the baby is still in there. I sure hope he or she is still in there because my belly keeps growing like the baby is getting huge. Of course, it might be the 5 pieces of gooey butter cake I had last night! Yep, I'm guilty...but it was the only thing (besides hot dogs) that sounded good. Plus, I'm not supposed to have hot dogs because of the nitrates. Okay, I had like 5 little smokies too :-) Don't judge me! It's hard to find things that sound good and actually taste good too.

Last week wasn't nearly as bad as the week before - both with morning sickness and grief. It seems that as Christmas gets closer I am thinking more and more of Cooper. But, it's not all sad. I know he is looking down on his mommy and daddy and wanting us to be happy. He did after all send us his little brother or sister. This baby was hand picked and that makes him or her oh so much more special to me!