Okay, so I got my cerclage in over a week ago. Nothing much different other than the after effects of the spinal they gave me. Apparently I was leaking spinal fluid for a few days - giving me some severe headaches - but that resolved itself. I've even already been in for a "mini" check of the cerclage, and everything looked good. I even got to hear the baby's heartbeat that day (the 14th). I love hearing that heartbeat!
Now we are starting to encroach on the really scary time for me. I'm 14weeks and 5days today. The closer we get to the 21w2d mark, the more I want to shut myself away into my bedroom and not come out until this baby is viable (that's about 24weeks). I tried to explain this to my doc, and his response is that I'm doing very good this pregnancy. BUT I did "very good" last time too, up until my water suddenly broke! I guess it's just a hard thing to understand unless you've been through it. I mean, one day everything was perfect and we were finishing paint in the room and discussing crib sheets...and the next we were burying our son. Ugghhh, it's scary.
I know that there are a ton of people out there praying for my family and this new baby. That does make me feel better, but it doesn't make the fear subside. I still think that I will put myself on self-inflicted bed rest (or atleast house arrest) starting at 18weeks until about 26weeks or so. Maybe after I reach that mark I'll feel a little more safe???
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