It seems so inappropriate to feel this way - to feel sad when I have so very much to be happy about - but, I do. I'm sitting here trying to write thank you notes to my doc and his nurse for all they have done through the past 2.5 years...and it makes me sad. I should have been writing these thank you's two years ago, or at least one year ago.
Plus, what do you say to the people that have seen you through the most awful points in your life. My doc was there for both of the boys births. His nurse answered my every phone call through all three pregnancies (and the in-betweens) and never once told me I was crazy! They have both been more than supportive, and I'm finding myself at a loss. I will see them tomorrow for my 6wk appointment, and I'm taking cookies to the office.
Also talking about the boys, a friend of a friend of a friend (convoluted enough?) gave me a card with the picture below. The friend even framed it for me. It's called "Soul Mates", but to me it looks like the boys being held by God's hand. It's perfect, and I love it. I have it up in Riley's room to remind me (and her) that her brothers are always watching and loving.
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I dont think it is odd at all. Yes, we have a lot to be thankful for. But our hearts will always hold the babies that our arms cant, and that will always bring a touch of sadness to our days.
The picture is beautiful. And I think it is wonderful to know that the boys are looking down over all of you and watching over you.
What a beautiful picture. I love how its in Riley's room, her big brothers will always be there, watching over her.
xoxo
Nothing you feel is inappropriate. You are where you are and that's ok. You are grateful for the gift you now have and for those kind souls who saw you through it all; at the same time you're sad and miss your boys.
I completely understand.
Of course you miss them. There is no shame in that.
That is a beautiful picture.
I love the picture too. It's like it was made just for you (maybe it was, actually). I'm sure you miss your boys even more now that you have a living baby at home. I struggled to find the words to match the depth of my gratitude for my doctor too. I'm so grateful for her.
"It seems so inappropriate to feel this way" NO it doesn't.
Riley and your boys are two seperate entities. You could have 10 living children after Riley but you'd still miss what you don't have--what your heart and arms desire. Tha doesn't make you ungrateful to have Riley.
That is a perfect print. So special.
I love it. You can be over the moon with happiness and still sad over your boys. I'm trying to learn this lesson myself, but it seems like such an easy concept when others deal with it. You are a wonderful mommy and it is perfectly appropriate to miss your babies who should be with you. Hugs.
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