Not complaining

I'm still suffering through lack of sleep. Sydney woke at 4am last night, but went right back to sleep after mommy rubbed her back some...sweet girl. Of course, then she woke at 5:30. So I went in to check on her and got her calmed down. I went to get in the shower, and shortly before I did she woke again. So I let her fuss while I was in the shower. Mind you her fussing didn't wake her sister (in the same room) or her daddy (who could hear the monitor). She did not go back to sleep, so Sydney was quite tired this morning by the time I left.

Reagan, the "good" sleeper these days, woke at 6:10...after we took the screaming Sydney from the room! Like her sisters cries were a lullaby.

Like I've written before...I will take endless sleepless nights. I will love every second of it. Because the alternative...sleeping through in a silent house...is not what I want. I have lived through that alternative, and its awful. So I am not complaining at all. I am chronicling my sleepless nights so I remember just how "worth it" these precious babies are.

I will complain about one small thing, but only on here. If someone wants to complain about being tired, don't do it to a sleep deprived parent. And if someone wants to complain about how hard being up with baby is, don't look to my shoulder...because one day I'm not going to be as nice and I will turn and say, "well I'm sure your sleepless nights with you crying baby are much easier than non stop tears and heartache from losing your baby".