Here is the update, as promised. The short story is that we are going forward with IVF next month. This is a difficult decision for me because it feels like I'm admitting that my body is broken (I already feel this way, but this is yet another tier), okay more broken. To all the IVFers out there, please don't take offense to this. It's just hard to wrap my head around because we got pregnant first time with injections and IUI with both boys. We've had 3 tries this round with one cancelled and two just didn't work (with 5+ eggs each time). Yes, we could continue down the IUI road a bit longer, but I'm not sure I can take that roller coaster again.
IVF is scary because there isn't anything beyond. Do you know what I mean? IVF is the last stop to being able to carry our baby. I realize that I can do many, many IVFs (as pointed out by my loving husband), but there is no next step to research. That's what I do, I look to the next step...the next level...what else might be able to work. I can't do that this time, and it's quite scary. Plus, I'm scared about the number of eggs that will be retrieved and fertilized and frozen...I have PCOS, so what if it's way more than I can ever use? Then again, what if this next step, the last level of fertility, doesn't work first time? I'm already pretty fragile...will I break? My best girlfriend (who is not pro-IVF, but is keeping her thoughts to herself) is quite concerned about my stability if this doesn't work. Well, I'm concerned too...but I'm not willing to just sit and not try. I want my living, kicking, breathing baby.
I'm trying to focus on the hopeful. Here are the stats from my doc during our visit:
IUI success - 25% each month/try
IVF success - about 40% nationally...but 70% for my doc!
So that's almost three times the chance to get pregnant...right?
There is a lot more involved in IVF. More shots, more visits, more time off work. Oh, and a lot more money. So, somehow I need to let work know that my stress level MUST be reduced. I'm working on that now...really. I'm already going to accupuncture and drinking herbal tea, maybe I'll add some yoga too.
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Hi,
No offense taken.... As far as IVF is concerned yes you are right it is alot more involved... I have been there 2 times so if you need any advise please feel free to email me. Take it one day at a time. One injection one scan one test at a time. As far as your PCOS they will monitor your follicle counts remember it only take 1 good egg to make a baby. You are in my thought and prayers.
Lisa
Been thinking baout you quite a bit lately. And wishing and hoping and praying for happiness and peace. I just really wish I could make things better for you.
I think your chances of getting pregnant this go round are much higher and I pray it works and sticks. It's a lot to go through, and I don't what it'l be like for you, but I'll be in the bleachers cheering for you.
I am praying it works for you. While I am not in the same boat, I do identify with the feelings that this is the last chance. Here's hoping your dr. is successful with you!
ohh definitely try the yoga, i picked it up after Daniella, and i just love it. it is so everything that people say it is. yes, i agree this is the last resort, so i understand the worry. and beleive you me, i know all about chances, but yours are very very good. you are with an apparently good doctor too, so lets be hopeful.
and please don't get me started on people who are against ivf (but at least your bff is keeping quiet about her reservations. in anycase...YOU DO YOUR THANG'!
I hope we can be pregnant together, but most importantly bring home babies.
It sounds like you're on the right path with your Dr. Have you ever read Dr. Licciardi's blog. It's pretty informative and he mentions quite a bit how important it is to have a doctor with good stats.
So, here's to November. May we both have BFP.
(((HUGS))))
Wishing you lots and lots of luck.
xx
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