Okay, maybe not

So maybe I’m not okay. My hopeful bubble burst today. It’s not a horrible day by any means, but the newfound hope that I had been holding onto is seeping out of my pores and being sucked away by the day. I went to the doc and found out that my follicles aren’t growing quite like they should. The doc’s office expects to see 2-3mm growth per day. My biggest follicle grew 1.5mm. It’s not earth shattering by any means, but it means that the follicle is only 14.5mm. That’s below the required 15mm to be considered as a “go” when they give you the trigger. Behind that 14.5mm, I have four 14mm and a couple 12 and 13. I think they counted eight at 12mm or greater with sixteen at the 10mm mark. Again, not earth shattering. My doc was nice enough to grace me with his presence this morning (I usually just see the tech and nurse) and told me to take some drug right away b/c they were afraid I was stalling out.
Oh, wait…you mean like what happened to me the first cycle for TTC#3? Yep, just like that – the thing I was afraid of. The reason that I was toying with taking just a tiny bit of drug last night even though the doc said to “coast” (i.e. no drugs). But, I did what the doc said and now it’s gotten me to the point I was afraid of – possible stalling again. Sucks!

So now I patiently wait for their call this afternoon to see what my dose is for tonight…unless they tell me to “coast” again. Then, I go back tomorrow first thing in the morning to see where the size of things are. I go back again to sit in that office and wait forever (usually an hour behind) with my drugs again in tow. Fun!