Grief Group

I am beginning to get involved in a grief group at my church. the coordinator knew my story and my desire to help others that have gone through something similar. So, she really likes the idea of me being involved. I'm almost excited about getting involved in it. I think that's weird, though. I'm kind of scared that being involved in the group will actually push me futher into my grief. Of course, that might not be a bad thing.

I find myself incredibly busy once again. Part of it is my job - not my favorite past-time these days - and the other is perhaps me avoiding my grief. Then there's the whole TTC with infertility thing along with trying desparately to not freak out when my friends announce their pregnancies. Honestly, it's all exhausting. And yes, I guess I am avoiding my grief again. Didn't I just write about this? I think God has taken control of this one, though. After all, He has put me in the hands of our church's grief coordinator.

I am hopeful that this will open other doors to help people. I am hopeful that I will be in a position that I can help other women through those dark days after loss. I am just hopeful that God will use me and the sadness that we have been through for some sort of good. I am still holding out that something...anything...good will come about.

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To add to your prayer list: The Rhodes family. They just lost their daughter at 35 weeks gestation. As we all know, they are in definite shock. Please just pray that they find some way to make it through the coming days together. It tears me up that another family would join our ranks. This is not a club that anyone wants to or plans to join.