One year ago tonight, I was still normal. I didn't belong to this (forgive me girls) horrible club. I didn't know that my life would be forever changed. I didn't know that such things happened in pregnancy. And I surely didn't know that anything was going to happen to me and my family.
One year ago, I still had my innocence. It's amazing what has happened in the span of a year...an awful and yet wonderful year. One year ago, it was a Sunday. I had returned from visiting my parents (by airplane). I had spent the day moving small pieces of furniture around while DH and a friend fixed up our game room. I still think I probably shouldn't have moved things...but there's nothing I can do about it now.
I went to sleep that night a bit more exhausted than necessary and woke up around 4am to have my water break. Not a good day at all. I didn't know anything then. I truly thought everything would still be okay. I was sorely mistaken.
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I've been thinking about you quite a bit today and yesterday (and the day before).
I am so sorry Windy, I really am. It's already after midnight- officially Cooper's birthday. I know how much you miss him and love him and want him. I can see your tears through your words. I wish I could somehow ease your pain. Please know we're here for you. May you have peace in your heart today. ((HUGS))
Happy 1st Birthday Little Man!
I wanted to thank you for coming over to my blog to lend some advise. I have been monitored for cervical length with U/S. Although my last check was three weeks ago. I am making an appointment first thing in the morning for another check. Should be with in the week.
I am so sorry to read your story and for the loss of your two sons. You must be a pretty incredible person to have made through so much pain. Please know that I am thinking about you and your boys. Especially now, as you are hitting an anniversary.
Here from Lost and Found.
I am so sorry about the loss of your boys. This is not when or how you want to mark your children's birthdays. I am really sorry.
here from lost and found.
my owen was born still a year ago today. i just wanted to know i'm thinking of you and your son.
Sending quiet thoughts your way.
I am so sorry for the death of your sons. Thinking of you and your sons today! I have yet to experience the anniverary of my son's birth and death. I know how difficult the days are, but am not sure what this day is life for you?! I imagine it's tougher than most days. Many hugs and strength are coming your way.
wow i remember being normal too. and yes this is a horrible club that no one wants to be a member of. this is what they call the new normal, and quite frankly it sucks. i think you and your dh celebrated his birthday in such a beautiful manner. i also beleive that our babies are closer to us in our joy rather than our sorrow. i don't think they can relate to sorrow where they are, and isn't that a good thing?
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