Thursday, July 31, 2008

What if...

I guess I'm getting anxious for testing next week. So, now the what if's are starting.



What if I'm not pregnant?

What if I am?

What if my TAC doesn't hold?

What if something's wrong with the baby?

What if I can't get the baby to sleep?

What if there are complications?

What about the c-section?



I guess it's okay for me to be scared. I've been through a lot. My whole family has. Right now, I'm focusing on baby steps. So...right now I'm scared to death about testing. Really, what will I do if it didn't work this time? How will I cope with that? Can I handle it? Of course I can handle it...but I don't want to. I want to have my family - my living family.

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