stuck

I tried to write a post from my phone while on a business trip this week. If you checked previously, this didn't work. I could write the title, but nothing else. I guess it was fitting.

The point is that I feel "stuck" in many ways these days. I was "stuck" in MA this week working. I am "stuck" in a job that I do not love that I work way too much for. I am "stuck" in between the world of grown ups and the twenty-somethings. This became greatly apparent to me while shopping last weekend. I have the choice to shop in the teeny-bopper area or the grown up area. Well, the teen clothing is just too short, low cut, wild, whatever...and the grown up area is...hmmm...grown up and a bit boring. Along with this is my biggest "stuck" - I am "stuck" between a being a mother and not.

I guess it really gets to me that all of our friends have their children. I had a plan for my life and it definitely included children by now. I didn't want to be childless (at least not a living child) at this age. Right now, I'm stuck here. I'm trying to find a way out, but at times it feels like I never will.